DEFEATED today: I reached a low today that I haven't been to in years, within a conversation. I could feel the depression seeping in, no, not seeping in, it was like a tidal wave bashing in. And I recognized it, and acted on it. I felt defeated, a failure all over again. But I did not let it in. I phoned a friend. He set me straight. Been working all day ever since. I am so grateful to God for the strength. Not defeated. Refueled.