Need sleep and need to pray - keeping priorities: But I posted on time! I am proud of you! I say this to myself and I mean it. I am proud of the way you are making positive steps forward every day. Still battling, but it gets easier.
355 Days to 55!
Still being kind to myself: Missed the post yesterday, but too many things, and no access to laptop. All good.
356 Days to 55!
100% productivity - building from a new perspective, a new lens: (but blogging late, missed midnight by 25 minutes, but better than yesterday) I can't fit enough into the day. Sleep is the most beautiful gift. Good night!
357 Days to 55!
Gentle, Gentle: I have spent years as a self-sabateur, most of my life actually. I began at the age of six, but that is another story, for a stronger day. I have learned to be gentle with myself of late. I now know not to listen to my inner critic at night, when I am most tired and depleted of energy. Inner critic? That voice that tells you that you are not enough, you will never get it right, things are hopeless, you are "loser" and other self-defeating narratives. For years, my inner-critic's voice had the voice of others. I have banished them, and am not learning to quiet my own voice inner critic. I had a VERY productive day today. All or nothing, all the way! But ... in a gentle way!
358 Days to 55!
Owning it: I got so busy yesterday that I just simple forgot to post. Have to let it go and post tonight and challenge myself not to forgot for 30 days!
359 Days to 55!
Accepting Reality: and remembering, that "where there is a will, there is ALWAYS a way. And LIVING it!
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Pivot or plow through (or both?): For me today, that unexpected was a brand new printer that I had brought with me to the hotel for my 5-day rebirth to make t-shirts ( long story why I am ironing t-shirts at the Fairmont Royal York the first week of my 54th year - but all in due time). My friend called (who gifted me the birthday trip) who is a life warrior and so successful on her very own that I sometimes cringe if I compare myself to her ( which I have stopped doing - comparing, that is), and after talking to her I decided to pivot. I went to Staples bought a new printer - I will return this one when I get home - and I will finish my "thank-you" signs and bracelets tonight and ship everything by UPS tomorrow or Tuesday. Not a massive act of courage on the surface, right? I wanted to pack up and go home - but instead, I chose to stay and fight my fight. Dramatic, right - I have made "packages" to sell my ideas for years and most times have failed in sending them. Recipients most often thought I was "crazy". People around me all shook their heads, and to a great extent, they were right. However, the "odd" time with emphasis on ODD - it did work out for me. So - I pivoted again today - full of hope, still not eating any sugar, walked my 30 minute walk, fell in love with Toronto - truly felt like I belonged for the first time in my life, not just in Toronto, but in life. I plowed through, I pivoted, I practiced self-care. All good. Really.
362 Days to 365!
Making the Rules: Well, for the blog anyway. I have until March 31st, 2021 to create the template, as it were: 1. My logo, ( the numbers created by SB from my United.Cool heart) needs to be added,
2. Maybe change the fonts, or make them darker
3. Create a favicon
4. Making the first few words bold - the call to action of the post ( see Making the Rules) above
5.Adding XX days left until Day365.
6. It is the details that build a strong foundation - in anything - at least to me. Own this. No matter what.
7. Start adding images, videos.
8. Start planning the Chapters of the book(s) that have been percolating and are now overflowing that need to be written. Stories that need to be told - all from a loving place, with empathy not ego.
9. Stop trembling. "This is what courage is - and it is nothing new to you. " I say to myself, smiling somehow, excited that the tasks became acts of courage!
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Realizing: "I may not be able to help millions of people and change the world, but I can help two or three people , on a regular basis, asking for nothing in return - and I can change THEIR world.
Once a week, I reach out by giving meals made with love and care and respect alongside quality ingredients and garnishes, spices and extra touches. I don't prepare these meals for "the poor" or "the homeless" and throw together some leftovers that I do not need. I serve up LOVE - and no, I don't have a Unicorn company, but I have a Unicorn's heart -full of love and sparkle. It is hard to write this out on a public web page (albeit, no one really know about my blog and it is in s state of disarray - but this is my 3nd act of courage.
364 days to 55!