2021: The Year of I will Prevail: For the last 10 years, on December 31 the year before I decided what I would call the next year. It started with 2010: The Year of Light At the End of the Tunnel and it was! Another year was the "Year of Going Global" - and it was indeed for about 5 years. I even made a sign above my desk so I would look at these words when I needed then most. Yesterday was such a day. The shittiest day in so many ways - and I pulled through. I did not over eat, actually I stuck to my regime. I went for a walk. I uploaded to my blog. And most importantly I persevered with my failures - looking for different ways to solve them. What was amazing is that the inner critic, my inner critic was not present. I received some feedback and other years it would have "killed" me. I did not let it. To me, the only anti-depressant I take and am dependent on is sleep. I can sleep for 30 minutes or an hour and wake up with a clear head, not a depressed state. At my worst a fw years back, my doctor gave me some anti-depressants and I took one. It made me feel funny (or maybe it was all "in my hear") but I threw them away, and decided that if I would get through, I would do it with prayer. And it worked - that was my therapy, and will be for the rest of my days.
In that vein, one way or another, this year, I will prevail. Not sure which project or with whom - but 2021 is the year I will prevail in my physical and mental health - and that will be the foundation for the rest. I am so grateful for the awesome support system I have, friends, family, my mentor and a whack of people new to my life. Onward + Forward - I have been saying this for a few years. And if I look back three years and a day ago, since my twin flame left this planet, I have indeed gone onward + forward. I made someone really happy today with my art and it made me happy. More on that soon...
350 Days to 55!